I am so happy that he is a happy, thriving, smart, loving little guy. It is so amazing how he continues to learn and grow everyday. Not only does his birthday mark his growth and development, but it also marks growth for me too. The day Collin was born was the day I went from feeling sad and lost, to overjoyed. When I lost my mom only two months before he was born, I never knew how I would continue to go on being happy. I couldn't imagine my life without my best friend, confidant, and mom. However, the day I held that sweet little person in my arms and he looked up at me I knew I had to continue on in her name. I had to be the best Mommy she had shown how me to be, I had to show my son how important it is to love and find happiness no matter what life throws at you, but most importantly I wanted to make her proud. Everyday, I think about how much she would have loved being around him and how he would have LOVED his "DeDe" (she hated that name, but she never she looked like a grandma). Now as he turns 2, I take comfort in knowing she had a bigger job ahead of her, she was called to be Collin's guardian angel, or Grandma Angel as he knows her. I know she is watching over him with much joy, keeping my little guy safe, and making sure he gives his mommy a run for her money (yes, she is getting a kick out of this=). I am so thankful for the unconditional love and support she showed me over the years and I try everyday to be as good of a mom to Collin as she was to me.
My life has turned out in no the way I thought it would. However, I have.. grown stronger, learned what is truly important, learned not take any day for granted, and most importantly I learned of a love like no other! Now that we have made it two years I know that life does go on (which I wasn't sure how it could) but it is even sweeter with the love of the most amazing son a mom could ever had.
Thank you mom for giving me my strength to continue and for showing me that love really does conquer all!
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I know your mom is SO proud of the amazing mother you've become, Jennifer! Collin is so lucky to have such a strong & compassionate mommy...PLUS that beautiful guardian angel watching over him.
ReplyDeleteWe didit!!!!!!!!!! (as Colling would say)! J, you have done the most amazing job raising our son! I am truely thankful to have such a wonderful wife and mother to my little dude:) Everything that Collin has become tells me that we are fulfilling the goals that we set out to achieve before he was born. I love you so much!
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Oh, how I love you guys... Jennifer, I only knew your mom for a short time, but it didn't take long to see the loving relationship you both shared. You're exactly right...she has a front row seat and is smiling from ear to ear at who you've become and the little man that has stolen her heart. Love does conquer all...you are an amazing woman, wife, mother, and friend. I am so glad that you were the one who helped me back in 2004...all because of setting up some pedicures. So, thankful for our friendship...love you.
ReplyDeleteJennifer, this is beautifully written and brought tears to my eyes! what an amazing journey you have been through the last two years. your mom must be very proud of you and the mother and wife you have become. the picture of you and your mom on your wedding day is gorgeous.
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